Hey there, my friends! I hope that you are doing well. Before we get much further, I would like to say something first. I want to thank all of you for all of the love and support that you gave me when I shared my story last week. I did not expect that. I’m not sure what I expected, but I did not expect that. Thank you so much for all of the love and support that you have given. I am very grateful. ❤ I look forward to building the community here with you!
When I’m going through my writing process, I am usually lost as to what to talk about. I am someone who doesn’t come up with something to write about until I actually start putting my thoughts on paper (or in this case, my computer screen). My initial thoughts often are disorganized, so I need to go back, read what I wrote, then edit it from there. Back about a month ago, when I was deciding whether to start blogging or not, I started reading blog posts that were posted by other people. I was amazed as to sheer the number of bloggers that are out there in cyber-space and all of the things that they wrote about. I would get caught up in the details of what they were talking about and would get distracted about what I was trying to do — which was supposed to be deciding whether to take the first step into the blogger world or not. I learned that sometimes I need to just blindly take that first step when I start something new. That’s one of the scariest things to do, as silly as it sounds. I wonder what motivates other people when they take the first step in a direction with something. For me, I blindly trust that somehow — no matter how scary something is — that everything will be alright. When I’ve talked about this with friends of mine, that’s something that can be difficult for them to do similarly. This is something that I don’t know if I can ever teach someone else how to do. Trust is something that is often not easily earned by others. I’m not sure how I do it sometimes, especially when I reflect back on my life. I suppose that it really comes from the fact that when I look back at where I was, I know that I got through it. I know that I survived when the odds were stacked against me. Things like that are much easier to do after you have done it at least once. It’s easier to look ahead in the future and be less afraid of whatever lies ahead.
That is something that I love when I think about things like my future. It is something that is full of hope and I love that feeling. Hope. It’s such a powerful feeling. It’s amazing how someone responds when they are feeling hopeful. It is something that is so powerful that it can help motivate anything that any of us might be doing out in the world. So much good can happen because of that one feeling. That is amazing.
Right now, we are living in a time that will be talked about in various history classes across the world within the next few years. It is also a very frightening time. There is a lot of hate and anger out there. I know that despite all of that, we will get through this, somehow. How do I know? Because I’ve been in bad places before… and I survived. It’s not everything, but it’s a great start. And in order to get anywhere, you have to travel. In order to travel, you have to start somewhere first. Be that person who faces these hard and trying times. Be that person who not only gets through something but comes out on the other side. It’s okay to not be okay right now. That is alright. I think that sometimes you have to go through bad times to really appreciate the good that is around you. Don’t underestimate how good a few minutes of sunshine feels. Or how good a cup of tea tastes. Find all of the little bits of joy that is in your life. Yes, some of those moments may be seemingly small and fleeting. But all of those small positive moments can sum up to making a huge difference.
Earlier this morning, I found that I let myself get up caught in petting my cat, Trouble, as she was looking out at the backyard through the screen door. I enjoyed watching her be curious about the birds, squirrels, and lizards that were out there. The sunlight was on her just right that you could see some shades of red on her fur. She was happy and it was making me happy while I had my cup of coffee this morning. I knew that this did not change the fact that there are so many bad things going on in the world right now. But I had found something that brings me joy and hope. It’s a great start.
Stay safe out there, friends! Until next week! ❤ :-)